Christmas

We spent our Christmas in Batangas, just like every year. We spent it with our other relatives. We came there on the 24^th. Our plan was to stay there until the 25^th but we changed it to be until the 26^th. That means we get to stay there longer. Basically, we just play computer games in the morning and go swimming the rest of the day. It may sound a bit boring but it’s not, especially since I’m with my cousins.

On the 25^th, it’s Christmas but I really didn’t feel it. It felt like a regular day but on vacation. It was really fun but it didn’t feel like Christmas. It’s probably because there’s no Christmas decoration and nobody talks about Christmas. Also, we didn’t go to mass. I think it’s the first time in my life that I didn’t go to church on Christmas. It’s a good thing we did on the day after. Even though it’s after Christmas, that’s the day I felt Christmas because of the mass. The church was filled with decorations and the songs were all for Christmas and I can’t explain it properly but it’s like there was this aura in that place that just makes you feel happy and light, and like it’s Christmas.

Proud

You told me you would support me in whatever it is that I wanted to do. So why do I feel like you don’t care about what I do. You barely listen to me when I tell you about successes I get at school. Can’t you tell that it hurts me when you don’t pay attention to me? You probably had no idea that I almost cried when you didn’t attend my awarding when I was a freshman. That was a very important day for me and you weren’t there.

You also told me that you wanted me to be active in church activities. Well, I found the perfect way to do that. I joined YFC. Every day, I tell you about what we do there and how much I love it but you don’t listen to me. I really thought you’d be proud of me. Now, you tell me that I should just quit. Don’t you think it would hurt me if you tell me to quit something I really like? I thought you’d be proud of me.

PSP2

What is the matter with you? What wrong did we ever do to you? Why do you act that way?
For very long now, I've always disliked you. That was it. I don't hate you because there is no reason for me to. I know that you have an absolutely terrible attitude but it was usually affected only other people so I didn't really care about it. I just let it go.
I don't do anything about it. I don't do anything that could put you in a difficult position. I just think of you as a regular person. We're not close but I don't hate you. I really don't like talking to you because of your attitude so I never start a conversation. However, when you're the one who starts it, I don't ignore you. I answer your questions but my tone is usually dismissive.
That's it. I just disliked you. Now, I despise you. I don't think this would be surprising to you. I'm not the only person who feels this way and I think you know that already. I think I have a good enough reason to hate you. It's your fault for butting in other peoples businesses. I still can't believe someone could do that. We were already in trouble without your help so why do you have to make it worse?
I still can't completely understand why you have to be that way. I've heard of people wanting to be the best. There's nothing wrong with that if you do so in the right way. If you want to be the best, do the best you can. It's fine with me if you try to boost yourself up if it's by improving your self. However, your way is to put other people down. You always try to put others in trouble. I actually thought that you already changed since the first time something like this happened. But I guess I was wrong. Maybe you will never change.

Naic

It’s the 8^th of December today. It’s the birthday of my brother, it’s the Immaculate Conception, and it’s feast in Naic.

My friends wanted to go to the fiesta so I went with them. We weren’t allowed to go during lunch so we went after school. I loved it when we went on rides especially on the octopus. It was really fun and scary. The scariest part is when the ride suddenly goes up and down. When it goes down, I feel like my seat goes down but I’m left up in the air. My heart beats so quickly during those moments. We also rode other rides but they were a bit boring.

Other than that, the whole day was so fun, especially because there were many of us to enjoy it.

Diary

When I was younger, I wanted to have a diary and write everything that happens in my life in it. I already imagined me writing on my diary about every single day of my life. I imagined having that and then reading everything when grow older and think about how much I’ve changed. One day, I found a really cute diary and bought it. Going home from the mall, I already had an idea of how I would start. My thoughts were running wild about what I would write. When I got home, nothing happened. I didn’t write on it. That happened when I was in elementary, about three years ago. Now, my diary doesn’t have a single word written on it. I never wrote anything on it.

Last Christmas, Jona gave me a diary. This time, I did write on it. I wrote about where I got the diary and everything that happened on the Christmas party. That was the first entry, dated somewhere on December 2008. I promised myself that I would regularly write on the diary. Guess when my next entry was written. It was on December 30, 2009. It was a year after the first entry.

I don’t know why I never feel like writing on it. For so many times that a special event happens, I think about writing it on my diary and end up not doing it. I always say that I would do something and end up not doing it. I don’t know why I’m like that. I don’t like the attitude but it’s the way I am for as long as I could remember. I don’t think it would be easy to change it.